We were so blessed to have Anna last year keep Michael. He loved her and she loved him. Anna had some family things come up and we decided that Michael needed to be around other kids too. So, he had his first day of 'school' today. I don't have to go back to school full time until Monday, but I thought he better have a little bit to get used to it before it's a full time thing. So today, he did a 1/2 day and tomorrow he will do a full day.
It's so hard to explain how I feel about it. I want him to be around other kids. I want him to experience things that he wouldn't get being the only kid. I want him to learn things that I can't teach him. But....
I hate it. I hate that he has to go to daycare. I hate that I can't be with him. I hate that he won't get to eat my meals. I hate that he won't get to take a nap in his own bed. I hate that he won't get a good nap. I hate that he will probably get sick for the first time soon. I hate that I have to wake him up in the mornings. I hate that I don't know the teachers. I hate that I don't know if they are sweet to him. I hate that he will be around kids that I don't know. I hate trying to be positive and not tear up in front of him. I hate that when I picked him up today, he was crying and looked like he had been crying.
I'm sick of everyone saying "it'll be fine...he'll be fine." "Quit worrying about it." That's the most stupid thing someone can say to a mother.
He'll be fine.
3 comments:
I still feel this way and my heart still breaks everytime I have to "drop and go" in the mornings and I have been doing it for three years now! It never gets easier, it just becomes routine! So sorry you have to do it too! :( However, on a lighter note: Michael looks absolutely ADORABLE going to school! He is really growing so fast! :)
I know Sweetie. I remember. Youe friend is right. It never gets easier, but it does become routine. One cavaet? They really do better when they go to real school. They do have better social skills and are much more independent and strong. Hey, I'm trying to be positive. You know that's just my nature. Hahaha
Seriously, saying a prayer for you right now.
I hate that I will be doing the same thing on Monday. Stay strong and know that God is protecting our precious babies. If you need someone to cry with I'll cry with you!
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