Finally! It's Friday and I get to spend two whole days with Michael! YEA!! Oh my goodness this week was hard. I did ok Monday morning. Just a few tears on the way to school, but then I came home for lunch. Oh it was wonderful to see him again! I had to go back. I lost it after lunch. Oh my goodness, lost it. I was so ready for 4:00. Tuesday-Thursday was better. Then today, he cried when I left...yeah, I lost it again. Geez. It'll get better...for the both of us. It's going to take me time to get used to leaving him and it's going to take him time to adjust to me not being here. Anna is wonderful. She is super good with him. Michael smiles when she walks in the door, so that makes me feel good. I am pathetic because I count the hours I'm not with him and then count the few hours I do have with him. I thought I was getting the flu on Monday, but then figured out that I've just made myself sick. It's going to get better!
This is by far one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I can't explain it. It sucks...that's all there is to it. I feel guilty, sad, like he thinks I've abandoned him, selfish, mad and even more sad. It's going to get better.
It's going to get better...that's what everyone keeps telling me.
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(((((hugs))))) for you
It does get "better", but NEVER "easier"! I hate to tell ya! When those babies look at you like "where you going momma"? Your heart breaks everytime...and it doesn't get easier with #2 either! :( I hate it that you are having to go through it, but it will be ok! And...it is ok to count down the time too...I do....everyday!
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