fohawk boy

our saturday

Michael was so excited to have Juice, Pa & Uncle Bruce come to see him yesterday.



Michael had a party for Cy to go to last night. This is our attempt to get family photos...

it's going to get better...

Finally! It's Friday and I get to spend two whole days with Michael! YEA!! Oh my goodness this week was hard. I did ok Monday morning. Just a few tears on the way to school, but then I came home for lunch. Oh it was wonderful to see him again! I had to go back. I lost it after lunch. Oh my goodness, lost it. I was so ready for 4:00. Tuesday-Thursday was better. Then today, he cried when I left...yeah, I lost it again. Geez. It'll get better...for the both of us. It's going to take me time to get used to leaving him and it's going to take him time to adjust to me not being here. Anna is wonderful. She is super good with him. Michael smiles when she walks in the door, so that makes me feel good. I am pathetic because I count the hours I'm not with him and then count the few hours I do have with him. I thought I was getting the flu on Monday, but then figured out that I've just made myself sick. It's going to get better!

This is by far one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I can't explain it. It sucks...that's all there is to it. I feel guilty, sad, like he thinks I've abandoned him, selfish, mad and even more sad. It's going to get better.

It's going to get better...that's what everyone keeps telling me.

in 5 1/2 months...

I've learned:
-to value any sleep I can get
-the true meaning of unconditional love
-true happiness
-the pure joy of watching your child discover new things
-patience
-how to have a conversation with a baby
-how to get myself ready fast and in phases
-not every child is the same
-it's ok not to take naps in beds...sometimes they are better in the swing
-those sweet smiles and giggles are the most precious things in the world!
-we should have bought stock in Shutterfly
-it's ok to take 100 pictures a day...it's digital!
-I can do many things one handed
-everything requires batteries, makes noise and lights up
-to get things done while he's sleeping...or sleep while he's sleeping
-family is the most important thing (something I already knew)
-the definition of over-protective mother...yeah, I am.
-flying with babies gets you in the smaller lines
-no one can do it like me...and that's ok
-to appreciate my parents (and grandparents) more than ever

In 5 1/2 months, I've learned a lot of things...many of which I did not mention. But most of all, I've learned that I love that boy more than he will even know and that tomorrow is going to be one of the most hardest days of my life. Tomorrow marks the end of my maternity leave. Yes, I got 5 1/2 months with my baby. Yes, it has been the most beautiful and fun 5 1/2 months ever. Tomorrow I start working again. Tomorrow I will miss that boy more than anything in this whole world.

family vacation

We finally got to go on a little family vacation that was just us 3. Daddy had to work in Dallas this week, so we decided to join him later in the week. Michael & I flew to Dallas by ourselves! Yes, I was a little nervous, but he did so good. We packed everything with Daddy in the car before he left so we would just have to take overnight things. We packed up our back-pack and headed out. They let me take the carseat on the plane and sit it in the window seat. Michael ate and then didn't want to be held, so I put him in his seat. He played then fell asleep with no crying! It was such a great flight. He was so excited to see Daddy when we got there too! We got to shop and just relax. It was a wonderful weekend!

We got to see Uncle Ryan & Aunt Maggie a few times and Mommy's friend from High School, Kristen.



Michael even got to take a bath in the ducky! His bottom is still a little round, but he loved it.


When we got home, Michael was so excited to try some green beans! He LOVED them! We took his shirt off, but we didn't need to...the boy didn't let much get out of his mouth! :)