Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put him down.
I never felt my heart break into a million
pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.

6 weeks

When you think about it in school terms, 6 weeks is a long time. It seems like a six weeks goes by so slow because you are just counting down the 6 week periods before summer break. You think, please, can this go by any slower?!?

But, when you think of it in your own baby terms, 6 weeks is not a long time...not a long time at all. Tear.

Yes, Michael Lance is 6 weeks and 2 days old! Tear. How can that be? 6 weeks and 2 days ago, this baby was born. 6 weeks and 2 days ago, I as hearing this boy cry for the first time and thinking it was the most beautiful noise I've ever heard...today, I wonder how I can make him happy so he'll stop. Tear. 6 weeks and 2 days ago, I saw my husband put on his first diaper...today he finished up what I started because I got poop all over me. Tear. 6 weeks and 2 days ago, I didn't know how my life was going to change...today, I don't know what I did without this boy. Tear.

Oh my goodness. Tear. As I'm typing, we are listening and watching to the monitor...listening to him not going to sleep in his crib! Tear. Yes, you read it right...crib. It's so big and he's so little. Tear.

We said before he was born that we'd keep him in our room for 6 weeks. Tear. Now, remember, I teach school and 6 weeks is a long time. NO IT'S NOT! Tear. I'm not sure this momma is ready for her baby boy to 'grow up' into his crib. Tear.

6 weeks...goes by way too fast!

Easter

We hope everyone had a wonderful Easter! Michael had a great first Easter. We spent it with Juice, Pa & Uncle Curt in Earth. He looked so handsome for church and just had to leave church once! Thank goodness daddy can calm a boy down. :) It was a great weekend full of golf, rain and taking naps. The Easter bunny even knew where to find Michael! He brought him bunnies and little chicks, some clothes and even left a few eggs.




Michael grinned at his momma with his eyes open for the first time on Monday! Yes, I teared up a bit! He had just eaten and we were just talking. I kissed his forehead and he looked at me and did his little half grin that he does in his sleep. So stinkin' precious. He's starting to hold his head up better and better each day. *Knock on wood* but he is starting to go 3-4 hours at night between snacks! Momma is really enjoying this extra bit of sleep. It's finally starting to be warm enough for us to take walks...unless the wind is blowing 90 miles an hour (gotta love West Texas!). He loves these walks. He starts out awake and a couple houses down, he's out! Thank goodness tax season is over! Daddy got to come home a little early yesterday and go for a walk with us...



Ok, one more sweet Easter picture...

the easter bunny is coming to town!

hoppy easter to you!

one month old

Our baby boy is one month old today! What a great month it has been! I never imagined how life was going to change for us. Everyone tells you that it'll change, but you never really know until you experience it for yourself. You know you are going to love this little guy, but you never imagine you could love him this much. You know you're going to be tired, but you never imagine you'll be this tired. :) You know he's going to be super cute, but you never imagine that he's this dang cute...